since that day i have really changed alot..
maybe what they said on that day have really hurted my heart..
but they never notice about it...
but it's ok i already get use to it since that day.. i thought that what i did to get a good result they always asked for was a right choice..
but since that day i know that i am such a dumb to belive that they will change their thinking towards after i work hard to get such result.. althought is not the best but at least is the best result i ever get since my primary..
so what.. they never think that it's good because he have a better result compare to me....
i never hope for much thing i never hope for a present but only a praise.. but end up i get scolded because not getting the straight A's .. now i realise what i cried for during the past was a waste of time..
the tears that dropped rapidly from my eyes is nothing more than water that produces from our body... maybe peoples will think that i am a person that only know how to complain what's not good.. but you never been through such life you will never understand..
after my form3 i really grown mature since that i have never tell my result to them.. because even how hard or how good i get for my exam they will only ask why i doesn't get better result..
for all member of my family including my relatives.. they take him as the only one can score good result but so far is still the fact.. i have nothing to compare wif him.. i have bored wif my life with such relatives they will always ask him what he ask but scolded me for what i did...
this is life,life is unfair there is nothing or point for us to complain ...
recently i can see this kind of things happened once again.. but my feeling have totally changed i have no more feeling towards such unfair things or maybe i have already suit myself with such thing i supposed.. i am tired of jealousing about what he can get but i can't get.. i rather use my own money to buy refrences book that causes one month of my pocket money.. i did this is because i know that i should learn how to train myself to be independen...
i did all this on my own will no one forced me.. it's ok now everything have settle down things have turns out to be the way it should be i am the one who should have suit myself with it not make the enviroment to suit with me..
anyway,i felt pretty lucky that i have my sister(elaine) be at my side whenever i need her.. although we are not blood related but she treated me as her blood related brother or maybe better.. i really appreciate what she have did for me.. she really mean alot to me without her i suppose i have break down alot times because of her i get to share problem with people she's the one who always try to make me happier than i suppose to be,she's the one who changed my life.. i love her alot... Elaine jie thank you for everything you have did for me...
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