the inner one..

don't really know what happened actually..

faking a smile infront of others, laughing even don't feel like laughing...

trying best to care about others feeling but ended up forgot about own feelings..

even how hard it feels still try to remain calm just to show that I'm reliable..

no matters how tired can it be still try very hard to find the solution..

all this happens because never wish to see any sorrow exist among friends..

if sacrifies own time and sleep can bring happiness and makes other feel better, still it worthy sometimes... 

maybe fantasize too much just have it very own side effect that never able to be realize until the worst situation take place..

to reach perfection is hard but still it's not impossible ..

same thing goes to wishing no one will sad among friends is hard but preventing friend from falling deep into the sorrowful world is not impossible and the least can be done..

just expressing..